Let me tell you a secret (by Vanessa Van Meerhaeghe)
here’s how my dreams went from last night:
I was with Bella (my best friend, if you’re new to my blog) biking in this tunnel to another island, and when we got there it was night and these 11 year old girls I know were scattered acting like mean and bitchy and then we biked passed them and got to my cousin’s grandmother’s funeral which turned into this old black woman with mental disabilities funeral and people from school/my grade were there, and then someone took Bella’s bike and she was okay with it, and the kids at my school were standing in rows like a military outside of a park in the dark, and it reminded me of the scene “I want you” from across the universe.
Then we went inside somewhere where adults were and there was 2 rooms, separated by a wall/sheet and some kids were there and someone was talking about the woman who passed away. I was putting stuff in a bunk bed that was big/taller than regular ones and I had a huge black suitcase and I was taking the piled of stuff on my bed and putting it in even though it was stuffed, and this girl from my school Dorothy who was new this year and I barely talked to, was in the room too standing on the bottom bunk facing the top one with me and we were talking and laughing a lot and felt really close that moment, and then after the suitcase packing I went back outside into the room where kids were having brunch or something, and there was a big round table with a few high seats.
In that room I climbed up this ladder to get something or something because I thought it was cool or wanted to go up top or felt like I needed to or something, and then I got to the top and this boy from my school (I don’t have a crush on but I think he is really nice and really cute) was standing bellow and I screamed for help because I was really scared and I couldn’t get down and he put his hand out and I grabbed it and climbed down and when I got to the bottom it was really short compared to what I thought/looked like from up high, and then I was like “oh my god thank you” and hugged him and I thought he wasn’t going to hug back at least for not longer and a moment and he did for like several minutes, even when I let go, and he hugged me really tight for longer than I expected and then (this sounds silly but) we were both wearing shorts and out bottom legs were touching and kind of swaying together, and it was a very cozy intimate moment.
That’s all I remember, at least it had a good ending. I’m gonna use this website to figure it out.
